Do you know

Do you know
I am a great thinker
But I am scared to that extent
That I can’t even speak
To my inner devils
About the heavenly things
I would say…



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I’ve always given
And never expected anything back
Now i’ve been broken
Too much,too many times
All I need is someone
Who won’t let me fall apart
People say follow the way
Your heart says
But which piece you follow
When heart is broken in million
I’ve been a disgrace
It feels like hell in this place
I’m trying too hard
And it’s all falling apart
Could it be the end
The thought tears me apart

If you left me.

If you left me ..
I have to go back to that awfull hole I have been livin in for years.
Drunk in my thoughts of you  and seeing you be far away from me…..

If you left me
I would be thrown into that silence again that I wasnt gettin out of without you I would be lured into the room without the light again
A room in which I isolated my self from all the feelings that feel like scars that are never gonna heal.

I dont think I can make it
I need you even if I want to live without you…. Cause only you can let me get throught my life.

Me Against Myself

Me against myself
tonight its gonna happen
a war gonna start now
with no one to put it out
the war between me and it
its gonna be so much heptic
a dagger thrust inside me
not gonna end this buddy
every blow i make
replied by a scar i take
we are evenly matched
we are still untouched

me against myself
i knew it was gonna happen
the rage is bilding up inside of me
i can’t set myself free

It hurts

It hurts

When you’re all in the dark
Without any light or ray
And someone comes to your life
And shows you the way
And tells you everything will be okay

They leave you like you doesn’t matter to them
just when you think everything’s right
And the future will be bright
After leaving the past behind
Don’t know why people change
why they save you
When you’re killing yourself
And leave you when they are the only hope you have left
Don’t know why they save us to see
That we can be something better then the so called “me”
And leave you
when they are the only one
whom you wanted with to be

It hurt you know

wherever you are
I want you to see
What I have become
After you left me

Only if you knew

Finaly you know
After all the days i’ve faced
“If you only knew”
Finaly I said it
“I love you”
After all the nights i’ve faced
When lost in my dreams
Not knowing the reality

Yet again
It all happened
In my dream

I woke up every night like this
I feel every night like this
I’m pissed at myself
’cause it will always be untold
It will always be ……

Only if you knew

I’ll walk alone

May be someday I’ll have someone of my own
Till then I’ll walk alone

I’ll walk alone
Through these rusty wind
I am shivering
I’ve forgotten when i’d felt some warmth
My inner self have become a cold wrath

I’ve to walk alone
Through this silence
Each tear-drop makes noise
It burns my ears and clears my thought
Aleast it gives me a chance to rethink
Is this all an illusion
Will there be any conclusion
But till then i’ll walk alone

I’ll rethink
I’ll retry
There will always be someone that passes by
But no one will ask why
‘Cause no one cares that’s why