I am sorry, it had to be this way.
Always on my guard, and toe to toe.
I am sorry for the words i said,
But i just never got your ways.
I am sorry i am different.
Kind of from the outer space,
Foreign to you and your race.
I am sorry i judged your face.
But what can i say,
You never showed your true intentions
I had lost myself in the past.
I lost the ones i loved too.
They walked over me,
And so i walk carefully.
I am sorry you thought i was out to get you,
But i was just protecting you from myself.
I am sorry but i am just that way
But the world never cared when i was sweet.
So lets just let it be this way.
Black isnt a color,
Its the absence of any color
Just like my life
And nothing’s going down
Never a dawn of something new
Always the dusk of everything i knew.
I am sorry that i dont cry
I am sorry that i dont yell
I am sorry that after all the things happen
I take them all so well
I am sorry i dont cut my wrists or take more than enough pills
Because i just take up all in here
And if the day comes when i cant take it anymore
make up all the courage i need
To pick up the knife out
There will be no blood to bleed out
Could you tell me how it feels to be heartbroken
Or to love someone who doesnt love you back
To love someone you want but cant get
For I want to love some with my dear heart
And want to know the obstacles before hand
There is no such way to know all this with out feeling them
To endure it without being with them
To love is to just love
You dont care ,for once in love there is nothing to care
To prepare for love is to prepare for a fall
A fall that starts you dont know when
And ends in a snap when you are not looking
Could both be the same moment or could be two different.
It doesnt matter ’cause you just cant prepare
I hate love
For all the sadness it brings with happiness
For all the pain it brings with relief
For all the scars it brings with memories
for all the death it brings with life
A sweet face can hide what a bad face can never
A bad face leads to consequences but a sweet face is always a gamble
I could never judge which side you were on
But i realised enough to know you weren’t on mine
You were hiding your pain
But was it really yours
Or was it the agony of the souls you consumed
I trusted in love so i trusted in you
But you could never really give
What my soul always seek
Whispered the night in the silence
forget the sun , I want to be with you
All the answers you seek are in the moon
Sweet wind passes by calling your name
Forget to sleep or I’ll weep the tears of
Take a deep breath and inhale the
Freshness of your fame
This is why you love the night don’t you?
For all the silence I have to offer
For all the peace there is to feel
So much solitude there is to see
If strength was in numbers
Day would have been your thing
But you are your own one man army
And isn’t it why you love the night ?
Standing at edge and wanting it to happen,
Drunk on thoughts of you, i cant see anyone passing.
Hands opened in the air aimlessly hoping you would guide me.
I took a step ahead and it was me, falling for u
Heartbeats reaching sky high and i was coming down to rest.
Sometimes i feel so lonely but the wind was there filling the gaps.
I left the edge i was standing, and it was me falling for you.
I would bet my life for your love in return
So sure i was that i cant lose a losing hand.
The horizon was changing faster than i can see.
I was falling down faster than i could feel.
They said falling in love is like falling in a pit that never ends.
Too bad my luck was out, it did had an end.
The levitation caused by your love was gone.
I fell on the ground, the last vision my eyes could capture
It was a note in my hand You wrote to me,
Reading “our love cannot last”
Love is a binary language,
Either zero or one.
Either they love you,
Or they never loved you.
There will be days you can sleep in
But not today
There will be days that aren’t Monday
But not today
There will be faces that brings you down
And faces that makes you smile
There will be moments of solditude
There will be moments with those who loved you
There will be times you are egar to leave
There will be times you don’t want to reach
There will be people who will mould you, summon you, want you to be who you don’t want to
And there will be people who will love you for what you are
Helping you to be what you want to
It doesn’t matter how many people judge you
Nor it matters how many people hate you
Because there allways be a face that brings you down
And there always be a face that makes you smile